You know what, well let me tell you up front that I will be pretty negative in this post and that is because I feel like writing what I feel at the moment. I feel really tired, I feel tired of saying the word 'tired'. I don't know, I get this bad feeling about days, and life. Sometimes I don't even know how to explain it properly. I get tired of this blog, and of myself and people and I don't know what to do. I don't longer know what I really like, or how I want my life to be. And the worst thing, I get annoyed by positive people that generally says 'oh, stop complaining life is great, you gotta go for what you want and be happy'. Oh screw that, if I sound dramatic or depressing I don't longer care, at least not today not at this very second. I might walk into the kitchen to eat a toast and all of the sudden I will feel inspired and bloody happy. Of course this is very unlikely to happen. But who knows! I'm just tired of feeling tired and not physically. But in the other hand I'm okay emotionally. So I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. I wish I was normal. I wish I wouldn't think too much about life.. and I wish I would care a little less or perhaps I should care a little more. Sometimes I wish I could change my name, move out of the city and dye my hair black with bangs, and act totally different.I might do it someday or maybe not. In the mean time I'll be myself.

I don’t care about anyone, and the feeling is quite obviously mutual.

I have been so lazy to carry my camera out, and take outfit pictures or even portraits, so I have been photographing this kinda of things. I know it is a bit repetitive. But that is all I've got to show you ha! By the way that cute vintage lipstick is from Boots. So I'm dressed, perhaps not really prepared to face the cold outside. Soon I gotta go get the train to go to university,I might get a coffee, read my book and listen to music, and this song is part of my soundtrack along with Elvis, The Everly Brothers, Frankie Lymon and Connie Francisssss. a song

If you gotta go, go now..

24th of November 2011.

When the sun don't shine.

I stare at the cloudy sky.

I feel tired, it seems that doesn't matter how early I wake up, time won't be enough. It goes by so bloody fast and it makes me tired. I tell you something city life is not good as it seems, especially when are getting older and have no much enthusiasm. Oh I know I am not old at all. However, I'm really enthusiastic to lay down on bed. x

Retrospective volume one

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Hello there. So I have found some old photographs from my old blog which I got it deleted and I decided to post them in this blog. Summer 2008/2009

Black & white snaps

Between stations and bus stops, waiting waiting.
I wait for the train, I wait slow walkers.
Alight, doors closing. It is so tiresome, well I won't even mention traffic.
Public Transportation; the main cause of my stress - I should wake up much EARLIER.

take me to a farm, with starry sky and let's swim every night

“My ambition is handicapped by laziness”
― Charles Bukowski, Factotum

Let's try to live this temporary life we have.

Good night, late night once again I can't obey to my own rules. One more day goes by to never come back, at least I registered it with these photographs. Today was a cold day I spent in this gray city, reading books all over and being scared of dogs. Parks = dogs = me being afraid of them running. Even the dogs don't give a damn about me, all they wanna do is run to get the log, wont even bother to bite.

a room post

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As I have promised here it is, a room post. Although I think this post has too many pictures my whole room is not fully shown. Just wanted to show you a bit of it, plus I still need to decorate it a bit more. I've got a list of things I need to get, but as I am a poor person I need to wait a bit to get them all. This Audrey Hepburn book is my new lover, it's such a great source of inspiration and great for copying her beautiful eye make up, but I find it quite hard to apply the eye liner, honestly I wish I was professional about it, doesn't matter how many times I try, I can't never manage to get it even. I'll keep practicing it though. Are you any good at applying eye liner?